Hold On To Me...

This song is my prayer right now... 

So many things are going on in my life: lots of transitions, people coming in and out, and overwhelming emotions that are absolutely draining. Thank God for His grace. My heart just hurts... there's no better way to explain that. God has been rocking my world lately in so many good ways and I know I'm coming under attack because of it. I'm considering/thinking things that I never have before. I need God's strength to get through this. He's been so faithful and I know He won't give me more than I can handle... I just feel so broken. This is not a common thing for me. I'm a strong person generally... God likes to remind me that I need him and I'm grateful for that, but I hate feeling this sad for reasons that don't typically bring me down. 

When I call on the Holy Spirit, God typically gives me a sense of being held. Like, literally if I feel like my heart is in a million pieces, the Holy Spirit comes and holds it together. I have this feeling of wholeness that is unlike any other. It's my "rest" when I'm feeling weary and burdened (Matthew 11:28). 

Like the song says, my faith is tired tonight. I'm spiritually and emotionally drained. Essentially, I've got a busted heart. Thankfully, God will meet me where I am and guide me through this. I'll surrender tonight. 

"I"m screaming out your name, 

don't let me fall on my face. 

I've got a busted heart, 

I'm in need of a change; 

Yeah, I'm desperate for grace."

That is my plan for the night. I know God will hold on to me and not let me lose my way. No matter how many times I break His heart, He'll never let me go. Praise Him.